Well, I am 15 days into my 90 day transformation and it is going well. I am certainly a lot healthier than I was a few weeks ago, and have found that just treating my self with more respect has made significant changes physically and emotionally, and I am really beginning to see changes in mind, body and spirit.
Now, anyone who knows me, knows I love to really go with the flow, it’s how I came to live in America……even though the job I came for didn’t happen, I believed intrinsically that I came here for a reason, a higher purpose than me just making it big in Hollywood, and having spent my life helping others I knew it was somehow linked to that.
Of course, I didn’t plan for the spectacular fall “from grace” that I was to experience but it’s a funny thing, while many critics, magazines and judgmental people have laughed and derided at my “misfortune” I have always known that somehow this is all part of the bigger picture, and that I have never fallen from “grace” at all but have very much been living in it…in my path, following my heart through whatever rocky road that will ultimately lead to me to my destiny.”
Sharing how tough times has been for me was a terrifying moment of “acceptance” and “surrender”. So many “what ifs” and so much ego had to just be thrown away. I had to stop caring what the nasty people thought and said and just care about who I could help and who was listening because they want and/or need help too.
But as soon as I opened up, an amazing thing started to happen. Energy shifted, people reached out and suddenly I realized, not only am I not alone in going through tough times, but by putting my own ego aside I opened a dialogue amongst people who had been too afraid to say they too were struggling. If I could admit to all these struggles then maybe it wasn’t so shameful to ask for help or to admit you needed some and didn’t quite know what to do. Strangers, friends, colleagues, people who had read my books all started writing to me (and I will get back to you all in time) sharing their stories of struggle and of triumph. Thank you.
And then the most important story of all. Yesterday a dear dear friend of mine admitted she has skin cancer (possibly stage 3) and not only did she need surgery immediately, but due to tough times she had also fallen on, after 17 years, had let her health insurance go at the worst possible time and the public healthy system would see her wait months to get in, which we all know is too long.
Suddenly my lack of finances seemed so insignificant. So what if I have no money. So what if I am too big to fit into my skinny jeans. As unhealthy as I have been, I am changing that, but in essence I still have my overall health, thank you God. And as we sat there, laughing, crying, talking, she shared how hard it had been for her to tell people that she needed help, how ashamed she had felt and yet how me sharing my troubles had given her the strength to reach out to those who could help her find the money she needs for surgery NOW.
This is an incredible woman, a life changer, a woman with so much heart and spirit it is just so wrong that this should happen to her and yet, at her darkest time she spoke of how she was going to turn this into an amazing charity that would help other women like her, women who lived following their passion, helping and giving to others, and who put their passion before their bank balance. She is “GOOD PEOPLE”! I explained to her that she is not defined by her bank balance, that many people had made and lost and made millions and it never changed who they were, good AND bad. If you wake up and do good in your day, you do good in your day.
The other thing we discussed is the idea that bad things happen to good people, and John Edward covers that in his new book Fallen Masters. He writes that sometimes our path is bigger than our own suffering and we are never ever given anything we are not strong enough to carry. And even though we can’t always see the “why” or the “where” we are going we just have to trust and never ever give up because God, the Universe, a higher power, your divine self would never just throw your life away without it meaning SOMETHING. So sometimes you have to trust and go with the flow, fight for your life, for a better life, for a better life for others but never ever fall and stay down because that is NOT what is meant to happen. YOU MUST GET BACK UP!
I will keep sharing my journey of healing. I have a long way to go. I have so much I want to do and for now it is baby steps and I am thankful and grateful for all that I DO have versus anything I don’t.
If anyone knows of a charity or organisation in the USA that helps people get the surgery they need now then please get in touch with me. Or if you have some spare money lying around and you want to save the life of an incredible woman who has not finished living then please let me know.
And if anyone wants to contribute to my anti bullying campaign and web-series Finding my Mojo then please go here ……
Thank you for listening…